Steph's my name, quotes are my gameee ;) I'm fifteen and live in New York. Wanna be penpals? I've always wanted one. I believe in karma, and palm-sweating, heart-racing love. No one brings me down, but I'm my own worst critic. Love my friends. I don't like promises, so I'll try not to make any. I've been through a lot, who hasn't? Add me on my personal, xBabayyyy mm, that's about it. I'm awesome. Comment and Subscribe!
I know I've only had the previous update up for like a day, but I need something to do before my head explodes. SO. This results in an update for you guys!:p
[1] I'm sorry about the phone call and needing you. But some decisions, you don't make. I guess it's just like breathing and not wanting to. And there are some things that you can't fake.
[2] Silence reveals where we really are.
[3] I fell asleep with your ghost, and woke up with a headache from the cure that’s only temporary, and that in the morning, always fails me.
[4] Taking steps back through the words I should've said to you, they all got lost, you went away. And I just don't care anymore. The way we are, the way we were, it's just a shadow of what went wrong.
[5] So here I sit looking at the traffic lights, the red extinguishes the hope that the green ignites. I want to run away. I want to ditch my life 'cause all of my mistakes keep me awake at night.
[6] Since I slipped on your love all I could do was fall. But now you're gone and I'm starting to see that without your love, this just isn't me.
[7] So give me your worst or something worse. Give me what I deserve. And if your worst is more empty words, then it's something I've already heard.
[8] All I ever do is picture you smiling, and then picture you leaving.
[9] Echoes of broken promises haunt me in my sleep. The promises I believed, the promises you couldn't keep.
[10] I've gotta say, you really got away.
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POLLL: What's the one thing that keeps you going when you don't feel like you can go on?
She lights a joint and drinks till she's blind. But what's the point? He's still on her mind.
[2] When you walk away from something and there's no gravitational pull, then you know you're doing the right thing.
[3] Withering away, a shrinking violet dies. So full of life, these lights have dried me out. Into the sea, I needed a drink. I never thought this would consume me whole.
[4] I had some nightmares, clawing at my skin and bones. I nearly did explode. You smoked the demons. Gave me back my feelings, now I am good to go.
[5] “The weak are the most treacherous of us all. They come to the strong and drain them. They are bottomless. They are insatiable. They are always parched and always bitter. They are everyone's concern and like vampires they suck our life's blood.”
[6] So, I wanna get myself attached, to something bolted down. So these winds of circumstance won't keep blowin' me around. From when I land, to when I leave: Theres not enough time, to sleep and sing. I keep running around and all I want is to lay motionless.
[7] Lovers turn into monsters at the loss of all affection. Almost like it was the affection that kept them from being monsters. And I could have used some warning, I was on that porch all morning smoking cigarettes and sinking deeper into doubt.
[8] You can wait on something only so long before your mind begins to roam. You can think on something only so long before the devil makes your thoughts his home.
[9] I wish there was something I could do for you. I wish there were some words I could say, but I know that you thought it out so well and I know there is nothing I should say. Figured it all out, figured it all out and nothing stands up to biology. And truth is built on shady ground, depression's all I get from philosophy and, but really, but really, what truth I've found.
[10] I guess time has a way of making everything alright, it's just there is not enough of it. And so we drink and we sing and we celebrate this lie and hope that it will last. Morning is here, night has passed.
[11] Once I gave a look to you but you never gave it back. So here I stand expressionless but my memory's intact. I guess the past is good for a laugh, a comedy so dry and black, that it makes my stomach hurt so bad, I cried.
[12] I wish you thought that I was dead so rather than me you'd be depressed instead.
[13] You know it's hard for me to accept that I will never have you, that you will always have the upper hand. You own my heart. I ain't got much left.
[14] And I hope every morning you wake up, it hurts more and doesn't stop. And I hope everynight you rest, you lay and pray for death. You made a better trophy in my dreams and now you are my nightmare. I wonder, where did I go wrong? And if you were all that's left of what it meant to live.
[15] Goodbye, my almost lover. Goodbye, my hopeless dream. I'm trying not to think about you, can't you just let me be? So long, my luckless romance. My back is turned on you, I should've known you'd bring me heartache, almost lovers always do.
[16] Right, birds can fly so high, or they can shit on your head. Yeah they can almost fly into your eye and make you feel so scared. But when you look at them, and you see that they're beautiful. That's how I feel about you.
[17] "Only when I grew to love you did I understand the relativity of time; then, I wished to embrace you forever, hoping that eternity would last just a few minutes more."
[18] Please say goodbye, take your love out of me and don't ask me why.
[19] There is a secret that we keep, I won't sleep if you won't sleep because tonight may be the last chance we'll be given. We are compelled to do what we must do, we are compelled to do what we have been forbidden.
[20] "I still find each day too short for all the thoughts I want to think, all the walks I want to take, all the books I want to read, and all the friends I want to see."
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POLLLL: Why do you think so many teens are depressed?
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[1] Every couple of nights or so you pop into my dreams and I just can't get rid of you like you got rid of me.
[2] We've lost the plot and we just can't choose. We are hummingbirds who are just not willing to move. And there's good news for people who love bad news.
[3] I always returned with some new little song. Some sad story to tell of a brief love affair, of a boy I compared to you, and he failed. How do you have me in a love so deep? I'd come running back to you in a heartbeat.
[4] And every time I scratch my nails down someone else's back, I hope you feel it.
[5] Your eyes meet by mere coincidence, or is it? At that moment, you both instantly know that the relationship between the two of you will never be the same again.
[6] So maybe one day you'll realize why you shouldnt have ignored me that night.
[7] I don't want to make a fool of myself. Especially since you're with someone else. Outwardly demure I would die for you. Will you forgive my inclination to tell? I throw my wishes down your wishing well.
[8] As he begins to raise his voice, you lower yours and grant him one last choice. Drive until you lose the road or break with the ones you've followed. He will do one of two things. He will admit to everything or he'll say he's just not the same. And you'll begin to wonder why you came.
[9] Every scream went bleeding through these paper walls and all the make-up in the world couldn't hide the scars I leave today.
[10] If you find yourself here, on my side of town, I pray that you'd come to my door, and talk to me like you don't know what we ever fought about, 'cause I don't remember anymore.
[11] The way you overcome shyness is to become so wrapped up in something that you forget to be afraid.
[12] You don't even know the meaning of the words "I'm sorry." You said you would love me until you die, and as far as I know, you're still alive, baby.
[13] And now we hardly talk, but you had so much to say those nights where there was skin on skin and I could feel your pulse. Considering I thought it meant a little more than this, I guess it's mostly you I'm starting to miss.
[14] Don't hold my hand if you aren't willing to take everything that comes with it.
[15] Let me make myself clear, If I leave here it's done; I'm gone, that's that. You carry my love around like it's a heavy burden. Well I'm about to take it back.
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POLLL: Worst way a friend stabbed you in the back?
I didn't get very many comments for 50 quotes, but then again, it was only up for a day. But, I'm in a bad mood so updating helps. Comments would be lovely.
[1] You have a beautiful, beautiful smile, the way it curls and collapses on your lips. When you touch me I shake like a child, It's late, I'm afraid you might leave, 'Cause sometimes it seems like you still don't believe me. There's nothing I can do to concentrate, It's so distracting, always thinking of you.
[2] I like the way my body feels when it's with yours.
[3] Anyone will do tonight. Close your eyes, just settle. I thought it through. And my worst brings out the best in you.
[4] But thoughts they change and times they rearrange, I don’t know who you are anymore. Loves come and go and this I know, I’m not who you recall anymore. But I confess you’re so much more than I remember. Can’t help but entertain these thoughts of us together.
[5] They're gonna find you, just believe. You're not a person, you're a disease.
[6] And I won't bother writing you a poem, because frankly, I can't ryhme. But I could write all the reasons I loved you, but God knows there's not enough time. (c) xStillCaringx
[7] I traced our names on a fogged up window and watched them fade to nothing, just like we did.
[8] You sounded so good on the phone, all moved up and all moved on. Me and gravity we never could agree. I can almost see the sky when I need to close my eyes. You're the only thing that's worth holding on to.
[9]
And you see it's hard for me to breathe when I get all worked up with these feelings and I don't know exactly how it is that we can be so mad that we consider to not exist. And we both know there's so much love clenched within our fists.
And I'm leaning on this broken fence between past and present tense. And I'm losing all those stupid games that I swore I'd never play. But it almost feels okay.
[10] The truth? I tried as hard as I could. I took as much as I could take. I put up with all I could. And it still wasn't enough.
[11] When the time comes, you'll realize how much you'll miss me.
[12] Woke up and wished that I was dead. With an aching in my head, I lay motionless in bed. I thought of you and where you'd gone and let the world spin madly on.
[13] Isn't like her to look all pretty? Like everything is alright, like nobody cried all last night.
[14] Theres so many things I could've done to change your mind, but sadly, I guess we ran out of time. (c) xStillCaringx
[15] When we don't know who to hate, we hate ourselves.
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[1] Infatuation cuts quickly and you sharpen the knife. A smile can only get you so far, green eyed suicide. I was willing to throw it all away but you couldn't decide. A smile can only get you so far, green eyed suicide.
[2] Suddenly, I'm hating myself for everything I ever felt for you.
[3] And I hope when you look into her eyes all you see is my reflection.
[4] As he looked her in the eye, he started to cry. He said they could never be together again, but never said why.
[5] At 4 A.M. she came out of the blue, I haven't seen much red since I've seen you. I'm upset, but I'm fine. I'm just surprised you're so unemotional. She said, in reply, "And I did some drinking and it's got me thinking of you."
[6] Have you ever wondered which hurts the most? Saying something and wishing you hadn't? Or saying nothing and wishing you had?
[7] Things got a little crazy for me that week. Where I drank myself stupid to the point where I couldn't even speak. It's beautiful here, I don't ever want to leave. Then I thought about the unfourtunate side effect of me being me.
[8] So, I'd prefer to be remembered as a smiling face, and not this fucking wreck that's taken place.
[9] No matter how bad you hurt me, if I had the chance to do it again, I would.
[10] People ask me why I keep on loving you when it's clear that you don't feel the same way for me. The problem with me is that as much as I want, I can't force you to love me, I can't force myself to not love you.
[11] Whoever said, "What you don't know can't hurt you" was a complete and total moron. Cause for most people I know, not knowing is the worst feeling in the world. - Grey`s Anatomy
[12] So, what's your addiction? The pain, the emptiness, the high? Maybe we all just want to feel alive. So cut up your arms, restrict all your food, and take hit after hit after hit.
[13] My mouth's shooting blanks, this situation's unbearable. I've gotten vulnerable.
[14] We'll make millions writing books on the way it should have been.
[15] And I drink in deep, letting the moment sink into my heart. 'Cause I never want to forget this feeling if I never feel this way again.
[16] Your good intentions count for little anymore. If you're sorry, why wage war? I'm not fully convinced theres something wrong with this. Could another point of view, biased and untrue, tear me away from you?
[17] You had me. For the millionth time. You had me. I know I said I would never come back. I said I'd never do this again. But here I am again, laying on your bed. And I can't remember a thing I've ever said.
[18] She finally realized that he's not coming back for her.
[19] Late nights, won't do me justice 'cause when I drink I just get so damn depressed. And it's, it's not like, I ain't trying to get over you. It's just hard to look at all the seasons pass me over too.
[20] So let's end these conversations. Here is your congratulations, you've left me bare and burned out, with a broken heart and a broken mind. I heard it all heals with time.
[21] Just tell me it's tearing you apart, please, just tell me it's keeping you from falling asleep at night.
[22] "I always believed in forever, but forever was too good to be true." - Winnie the Pooh
[23] And I've become content with this life that I lead, where I drink too much and don't believe in much of anything.
[24] Ignoring the phone, I'd rather say nothing. I'd rather you'd never heard my voice. You're calling too late, too late to be gracious. You do not warrant long goodbyes.
[25] With these drinks I plan to collapse and forget this wasted year, these wasted years. Devoted friends, they disappear.
[26] I'm writing a song about you. A true song; as real as my tears. But you've no need to fear it cause no one will hear it. Sad songs and Waltzes aren't selling this year.
[27] No you won’t disarm my heart. The last gift you’ll ever get from me is the combination or the key.
[28] There's no need for excuses, Baby I know what you did. What's with the blank expression on your face? Am I really that uninteresting? I just need a way out of this place.
[29] "Lets play truth or dare, or just dare, because no one really tells the truth anymore." -The O.C.
[30] Scrap books kept and lost, they were tossed aside like sunday nights Memories bleed away, like romance novels and day time dramas I'll hold my breath please make it slow, you know I deserve it With my last six bleeding words I breathe, break my heart, don't hurt it.
[31] It took me by surprise, when I saw you standing there. Close enough to touch breathing the same air. You asked me how I'd been, I guess that’s when I smiled and said "Just fine." Oh but baby I was lying. What I really meant to say is I'm dying here inside and I miss you more each day. There's not a night I haven't cried and baby here's the truth, I'm still in love with you. That’s what I really meant to say.
[32] I can't move on.. because the only thing I can find wrong with you, is that you can find so much wrong with me.
[33] So she said, "Did you know? My hearts bleeding for you." And he said, "Do you mind? You're getting blood on my shoes."
[34] What hurts the most is the fact that you don't hurt at all.
[35] Lets not leave each other anymore. It's a lonely world without you in it.
[36] You're the catalyst that makes my heart palpate.
[37] Isn't this exactly where you like me? Praying for love in a lapdance.
[38] You were the reason she did this to herself.
[39] You really shouldn't say, "I love you," unless you mean it, but if you mean it, you should say it a lot. People forget. - Jessica, Age 8
[40] When you finally figure out what it is you need, you better think of me.
[41] I'm uneasy. And I'm weak in the knees. And I'm trying not to breathe. Not believing, not believing you're gone. And that I was the one to let you.
[42] She told herself she was leaving for good this time. This time, he wouldn’t talk her into coming back. She told herself she wouldn’t believe him, no matter how sweet he was to her, no matter how sincere his promises were. She told herself that if she stayed again, he would kill her. Maybe not this month or the next, but he would kill her.
[43] Did you ever have the feeling that you wanted to go, and still have the feeling that you wanted to stay?
[44] Its Tuesday and I already hit the bottle. I can't even fall in love at happy hour. I think I'll go home now and dream about the nightmares that could be, like all my friends turning into my enemies, you're good at pushing me out.
[45] So you threw out all his clothes, and burned the love letters he wrote, and the plaster dented from your fist, in the hall where you had your first kiss, reminds you the memories will never fade.
[46] I took a wrong turn down the road of the unhealed. This tragic depression in my mind is starting to take over me. I'm letting myself go. You're fidgiting with my heart and it hurts. I'm fragile. Please don't hurt whats already shattered.
[47] I want you to be mine, but those words are just another stupid line.
[48] You insist on explaining the obvious When it's pointless and I'm heartless For saying what's really on our minds. Your words go to rhythm, while mine go to rhyme. You were never good with syllables and half heart felt lines. So keep swimming sweetness until you catch my drift And remember the nametag that reads: Hi I'm: A Backstabbing Bitch When I said you were my best, by best I meant my worst.
[49] If I told you I didn't miss what we had.. Well its the dead truth in my head. But some other part of me won't let you go. I can't say it's my heart because it's in too many pieces from what you did.
[50] Shes a wound inside my head It hurts to see what you've become If it were me and I were you I'd run away too.
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Steph's my name, quotes are my gameee ;) I'm fifteen and live in New York. Wanna be penpals? I've always wanted one. I believe in karma, and palm-sweating, heart-racing love. No one brings me down, but I'm my own worst critic. Love my friends. I don't like promises, so I'll try not to make any. I've been through a lot, who hasn't? Add me on my personal, xBabayyyy mm, that's about it. I'm awesome. Comment and Subscribe!
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