i tore you out of my hearttt

my monitor like, broke on my computer.
so i have to get a new one before i can put up photography with this,
it won't be long<3 commment, lovelies.

[1]
"The time most wasted is the time you spend thinking you are alone."
- The Five People You Meet in Heaven

[2]
The trouble with miracles is, they don't last long.
And the trouble with bad things is, you can't sleep through them.
-Stargirl

[3]
Sometimes you can't get back whats lost
and sometimes thats the way its supposed to be..

[4]
Do you ever wake up from a really good dream 
and just try to get back to sleep? Or you have the flu
and promise yourself you'll appreciate normal so much
more if you could just get back to it? That’s the way I feel.
I just want things to go back to the way they were.
- One Tree Hill

[5]
So no, I don't think it's too much to take on,
because it's everything there is. I see now it's all there.
You and I are going to be okay, you know that right?
We may not be as happy as you always dreamed we would be,
but for the first time, let's just allow ourselves to be whatever it is we are.
And that'll be better, okay? I think it'll be better.
- Garden State

[6]
It occured to me that if you loved it sucked,
and if you didn't love it sucked, so either way you were screwed.
Maybe love was better. At least sometimes you got chocolates.
-Wild Roses, Deb Caletti

[7]
And if someone would ask me what I miss most in life,
it wouldn't be you. It’d be that feeling that I got whenever you were around,
whenever you held me in your arms.
That feeling of security, comfort, and yes - love.
I miss feeling like someone cared. I miss the way you could
make me laugh on days that I didn't even want to smile.
I miss those feelings. I miss the love.

[8]
And if I ever stop thinking of you
I'd probably choke on the words I never said.
And if I stop ever thinking of you,
I'd bury my heart and fall back in my bed.

[9]
"To continue to love somebody when
there's no promise of that love ever thiriving, that is romance."
- Dawson's Creek

[10]
I won't deny that I was happy with us,
and that I loved every second we were together.
But that doesn't mean I'll take you back.
Sometimes things start for a reason,
and they end for a reason, too.

commment?

I'll stop the world and melt with youu

I know I've only had the previous update up for like a day,
but I need something to do before my head explodes.
SO. This results in an update for you guys!:p

[1]
I'm sorry about the phone call and needing you.
But some decisions, you don't make.
I guess it's just like breathing and not wanting to.
And there are some things that you can't fake.



[2]
Silence reveals where we really are.



[3]
I fell asleep with your ghost,
and woke up with a headache
from the cure that’s only temporary,
and that in the morning, always fails me.



[4]
Taking steps back through the words
I should've said to you,
they all got lost, you went away.
And I just don't care anymore.
The way we are, the way we were,
it's just a shadow of what went wrong.



[5]
So here I sit looking at the traffic lights,
the red extinguishes the hope that the green ignites.
I want to run away. I want to ditch my life
'cause all of my mistakes keep me awake at night.



[6]
Since I slipped on your love all I could do was fall.
But now you're gone and I'm starting to see
that without your love, this just isn't me.



[7]
So give me your worst or something worse.
Give me what I deserve.
And if your worst is more empty words,
then it's something I've already heard.



[8]
All I ever do is picture you smiling,
and then picture you leaving.



[9]
Echoes of broken promises haunt me in my sleep.
The promises I believed, the promises you couldn't keep.



[10]
I've gotta say, you really got away.

 

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POLLL:
What's the one thing that keeps you going when you don't feel like you can go on?

I just wanna be closee<3

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[1]
She lights a joint and
drinks till she's blind.
But what's the point?
He's still on her mind.

[2]
When you walk away from something
and there's no gravitational pull, then
you know you're doing the right thing.



[3]
Withering away, a shrinking violet dies.
So full of life, these lights have dried me out.
Into the sea, I needed a drink.
I never thought this would consume me whole.

[4]
I had some nightmares, clawing at my skin and bones.
I nearly did explode.
You smoked the demons. Gave me back my feelings,
now I am good to go.



[5]
“The weak are the most treacherous of us all.
They come to the strong and drain them.
They are bottomless. They are insatiable.
They are always parched and always bitter.
They are everyone's concern and
like vampires they suck our life's blood.”

[6]
So, I wanna get myself attached, to something bolted down.
So these winds of circumstance won't keep blowin' me around.
From when I land, to when I leave:
Theres not enough time, to sleep and sing.
I keep running around and all I want is to lay motionless.



[7]
Lovers turn into monsters at the loss of all affection.
Almost like it was the affection that kept them from being monsters.
And I could have used some warning,
I was on that porch all morning
smoking cigarettes and sinking deeper into doubt.

[8]
You can wait on something only so long
before your mind begins to roam.
You can think on something only so long
before the devil makes your thoughts his home.



[9]
I wish there was something I could do for you.
I wish there were some words I could say,
but I know that you thought it out so well
and I know there is nothing I should say.
Figured it all out, figured it all out and
nothing stands up to biology.
And truth is built on shady ground,
depression's all I get from philosophy
and, but really, but really, what truth I've found.

[10]
I guess time has a way of making everything alright,
it's just there is not enough of it.
And so we drink and we sing and we celebrate
this lie and hope that it will last.
Morning is here, night has passed.



[11]
Once I gave a look to you but you never gave it back.
So here I stand expressionless but my memory's intact.
I guess the past is good for a laugh,
a comedy so dry and black,
that it makes my stomach hurt so bad, I cried.

[12]
I wish you thought that I was dead so
rather than me you'd be depressed instead.



[13]
You know it's hard for me to accept that
I will never have you,
that you will always have the upper hand.
You own my heart.
I ain't got much left.

[14]
And I hope every morning you wake up,
it hurts more and doesn't stop.
And I hope everynight you rest,
you lay and pray for death.
You made a better trophy in my dreams
and now you are my nightmare.
I wonder, where did I go wrong?
And if you were all that's left of what it meant to live.

[15]
Goodbye, my almost lover.
Goodbye, my hopeless dream.
I'm trying not to think about you, can't you just let me be?
So long, my luckless romance.
My back is turned on you,
I should've known you'd bring me heartache,
almost lovers always do.

[16]
Right, birds can fly so high,
or they can shit on your head.
Yeah they can almost fly into your eye
and make you feel so scared.
But when you look at them,
and you see that they're beautiful.
That's how I feel about you.

[17]
"Only when I grew to love you did
I understand the relativity of time;
then, I wished to embrace you forever,
hoping that eternity would last just a few minutes more."

[18]
Please say goodbye, take your love out of me and don't ask me why.

[19]
There is a secret that we keep,
I won't sleep if you won't sleep because
tonight may be the last chance we'll be given.
We are compelled to do what we must do,
we are compelled to do what we have been forbidden.

[20]
"I still find each day too short for all the thoughts
I want to think, all the walks I want to take,
all the books I want to read,
and all the friends I want to see."

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POLLLL:
Why do you think so many teens are depressed?

it's not so bad, you're just the best i ever had;

I'm in the mood for updating again, lucky you guys. ;)

[1]
Every couple of nights or so
you pop into my dreams and
I just can't get rid of you like
you got rid of me.



[2]
We've lost the plot and we just can't choose.
We are hummingbirds who are just not willing to move.
And there's good news for people who love bad news.



[3]
I always returned with some new little song.
Some sad story to tell of a brief love affair,
of a boy I compared to you, and he failed.
How do you have me in a love so deep?
I'd come running back to you in a heartbeat.



[4]
And every time I scratch my nails
down someone else's back, I hope you feel it.



[5]
Your eyes meet by mere coincidence, or is it?
At that moment, you both instantly know that
the relationship between the two of you will
never be the same again.



[6]
So maybe one day you'll realize
why you shouldnt have ignored me that night.



[7]
I don't want to make a fool of myself.
Especially since you're with someone else.
Outwardly demure I would die for you.
Will you forgive my inclination to tell?
I throw my wishes down your wishing well.



[8]
As he begins to raise his voice,
you lower yours and grant him one last choice.
Drive until you lose the road or
break with the ones you've followed.
He will do one of two things.
He will admit to everything or
he'll say he's just not the same.
And you'll begin to wonder why you came.



[9]
Every scream went bleeding
through these paper walls and
all the make-up in the world
couldn't hide the scars I leave today.



[10]
If you find yourself here, on my side of town,
I pray that you'd come to my door, and
talk to me like you don't know what we ever fought about,
'cause I don't remember anymore.



[11]
The way you overcome shyness
is to become so wrapped up in
something that you forget to be afraid.



[12]
You don't even know the meaning
of the words "I'm sorry." You said
you would love me until you die,
and as far as I know,
you're still alive, baby.



[13]
And now we hardly talk, but you had so much
to say those nights where there was skin on skin
and I could feel your pulse. Considering I thought
it meant a little more than this, I guess
it's mostly you I'm starting to miss.



[14]
Don't hold my hand if you aren't willing to take everything that comes with it.



[15]
Let me make myself clear,
If I leave here it's done;
I'm gone, that's that.
You carry my love around like
it's a heavy burden.
Well I'm about to take it back.



Comments.

POLLL:
Worst way a friend stabbed you in the back?

If I just breathe;

I didn't get very many comments for 50 quotes, but then again,
it was only up for a day. But, I'm in a bad mood so updating helps.
Comments would be lovely.

[1]
You have a beautiful, beautiful smile,
the way it curls and collapses on your lips.
When you touch me I shake like a child, 
It's late, I'm afraid you might leave,
'Cause sometimes it seems like you still don't believe me.
There's nothing I can do to concentrate,
It's so distracting, always thinking of you.



[2]
I like the way my body feels when it's with yours.



[3]
Anyone will do tonight.
Close your eyes, just settle.
I thought it through.
And my worst brings out the best in you.



[4]
 But thoughts they change and times they rearrange,
I don’t know who you are anymore.
Loves come and go and this I know, I’m not who you recall anymore.
But I confess you’re so much more than I remember.
Can’t help but entertain these thoughts of us together.



[5]
They're gonna find you, just believe.
You're not a person, you're a disease.



[6]
And I won't bother writing you a poem,
because frankly, I can't ryhme.
But I could write all the reasons I loved you,
but God knows there's not enough time.
(c) xStillCaringx



[7]
I traced our names on a fogged up window
and watched them fade to nothing, just like we did.



[8]
You sounded so good on the phone, all moved up and all moved on.
Me and gravity we never could agree.
I can almost see the sky when I need to close my eyes.
You're the only thing that's worth holding on to.



[9]

And you see it's hard for me to breathe when I get all
worked up with these feelings and I don't know exactly how it is
that we can be so mad that we consider to not exist.
And we both know there's so much love clenched within our fists.

And I'm leaning on this broken fence between past and present tense.
And I'm losing all those stupid games that I swore I'd never play.
But it almost feels okay.



[10]
The truth? 
I tried as hard as I could. 
I took as much as I could take. 
I put up with all I could.
And it still wasn't enough.



[11]
When the time comes, you'll realize how much you'll miss me.



[12]
Woke up and wished that I was dead.
With an aching in my head, I lay motionless in bed.
I thought of you and where you'd gone and let the world spin madly on.



[13]
Isn't like her to look all pretty?
Like everything is alright,
like nobody cried all last night.



[14]
Theres so many things I could've done to change your mind,
but sadly, I guess we ran out of time.
(c) xStillCaringx



[15]
When we don't know who to hate,
we hate ourselves.



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POLL:
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And how many of you actually suffer from an eating disorder or "watch your weight?"